red grave city au with alastor

[carvemyname]

 

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[superstylishsquid]

No? Why would I be?

[He just sounds confused?]

[carvemyname]

Nobody's said that to me but my mom.

Ever.

[superstylishsquid]

Well...how many people have actually managed to get close to you? Even Lady and Trish, you seem to hold at arm's length.

[carvemyname]

Do I?

I don't want to.

[superstylishsquid]

I don't think it's on purpose, but...yeah. You're probably a bit hard to read for people who don't have my empathy powers or...mixed mindset.

[carvemyname]

I don't really see a future with a lot of people. They die too easily.

[ He can't protect everyone, no matter how much he tries. ]

[superstylishsquid]

Hasn't Lady been in your life for a while now? You've known her since before we met.

[carvemyname]

...yeah, I have no excuse there.

[ He sighs. ]

[superstylishsquid]

Just habit, probably. When was the last time you actually thought about how long she's managed to make it as a devil hunter?

[carvemyname]

Other than worrying she's not going to make it another year? Not much.

[superstylishsquid]

She shown any signs of having gotten complacent or overconfident?

[carvemyname]

Not at all.

She's at her prime more than ever.

[superstylishsquid]

Then I think she'll be fine for a good while yet.

[carvemyname]

Why do I worry so fucking much, then?

Is this what happens when you care?

[superstylishsquid]

...I think so. Part of why I tried to avoid it, really. Caring gets...uncomfortable, when your friends are in danger.

[carvemyname]

I've wanted nothing more my entire life than to be close to someone. But it hurts.

[superstylishsquid]

Yeah. 'S why I find it easier to get close to people who can handle things if they get rough.

Especially with the underworld hating both of us, right?

[carvemyname]

I don't have to worry with you.

I don't think.

[superstylishsquid]

Nah. As long as I keep my original sword safe, I'll be fine even if something somehow manages to mess this body up more than I can heal.

[carvemyname]

Promise me.

[superstylishsquid]

I promise, I'm not going down easy, and even if I do? My soul is anchored to my Devil Arm, I'll be fine.

[carvemyname]

Okay, because - there's a lot of things I want to do with you. I'm not going to be done with you ever.

[superstylishsquid]

Ever, huh? To-do list that long now, or do you just keep adding to it?

[carvemyname]

Some of what I want takes decades to fulfill.

[superstylishsquid]

You mean the part where we both want to raise a child?